first of all i dont really have someone to tell my story to, my family is so messed up rn, i feel like i dont have anyone to talk to, my friends are busy, i used to share everything with my ex, but now that he left me. i really have no one, except of Jesus. Sometimes i feel like i wanted to burst into tears and stressing over nothing when i have a problem, because i still shock of this irregular situation.
first of all i dont like my father egoistical behavior. he shouts everytime he didnt find or get what he wanted. he shout asking for help and we must go grab what he wanted fast, he shout at me. asked me to go out of the bathroom while im still washing my face. and because i dont want to, he keeps grumbling.
and second, i dont know if i have a eating disorders or not. i cant self diagnose my self, but my eating desire is so high. i cant stop it.
i want to achieve my body goals so i could wear what I’ve dreamed all this time. and of course i want to attract someone. i want to prove to all of my enemy and to all the people drag me down saying it’s impossible for me to get my dream body.
Father… I fell in love with an athlete. A “not-so” famous athlete. I really want to get that body type (of course to attract him). but why do i feel hungry always God. I wish that i can find business and activities that i love to do. So im not easily feel hungry.
I wish that i have a wifi extender here so i dont have to go outside my room and get attracted with the food they offer me.
ARGHH!!! IT’S SO HARD TO SAY NO TO FOODIES.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME,,,
is that because of my bad eating behavior ?
