If you have that parents who’s always got your back, and always support you no matter what. Then…. Lucky you. It is always my dreams to have such a supportive oldster like that.
Let say, i have a cousin. Nathalie. Her mom always guard and protect her, not only from all the fight that her daughter has had, but also from a bad branding that people gave to her daughter. Nathalie’s not a diligent at cleaning. She only does her campus task and playing games. Yet her mother tries so hard so people can welcome her daughter and likes her daughter. She always covering her daughter lack so people can only see the good side of her daughter.
My mother. While other mom try to protect their kid from other people bad branding. She, herself. Bad branding her own daughter, even when her daughter doing better than what she said. She’s so happy when her own daughter be the hot topic of other’s gossip. With happy and proud face, she would let other people talk bad about her daughter. Even she lead the bad discussion about me.
She was curious about my harsh speaking habit and abusive behavior. Well… the answer is in the mirror dear holy mom. The answer is in front of you, in the mirror. You often humiliate me in front of many people, makes fun of my insecure thing that is totally not funny.
Mom… Dad… you raised me in the worst way. You are failed at parenting.
Since childhood I was used to being humiliated, yelled at, and beaten. Whether if i did something wrong or not. Parents fight in front of me, Mom left me to mean and irresponsible people, Dad locked me in a house, scolded in front of many teacher.
Dear parents, I often get bullied in my school since i was in my primary school until i was at my junior high. You didn’t try to strengthen me, you made it into a joke. “Yah anak cupu”, “Aurel jadi anak cemen di sekolah”, “anak bego-bego”, “Aurel punya geng cemen”. Makes me look like a mentally ill kid. I was believed in them, I thought i wasn’t normal at the time. But proven after I entered high school, no one bullied me. I can get along well, I have lots of friends. In church I also have many loyal friends. It turned out that what my parents labeled me as having backwardness in socializing was wrong. Only my environment was toxic at that time.
I was afraid mom, they (more than 10 people, boys and girls) bullied me and yelled at me in front of my face. I was afraid, all of my friends left me because they’re afraid if they stand by me they might get bullied to. I have no one to stay by my side, my parents also not there, the bullied and mocked me too. Made fun of it, because i wasn’t brave enough to stand up by myself.
I cannot wish for other parents, and i cannot change who my parents was. I just need to fight for my own self. The world is not always as what you expect. so I can lean on Him only.
